heart to call home

I was your flame Now I'm the moth Burned by your love Now no fire is hot enough Played by your touch, i played the fool We used to be so damn good oh I've been lost ever since I dont know x3 Where to go x3 Lookin for x3 A heart to call my home Sometimes I wish We never met Unbreak, oh unbreak my wings can't fly with this regret It's so unfair that you don't even care Not even a goodbye, you just left me there well young love oh, young love is gone, let go love, he's gone love

I dont know x3 Where to go x3 Lookin for x3 A heart to call my home

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I was 18 and studying abroad in Shanghai where I met a boy from Singapore. "Why won't you fall in love with me??" he blurted out once when he thought I was asleep. I just didn't know/wanted to admit it yet. Obviously he liked me more than I did him at first. At the time I was just coming out of a dramatic breakup with my first boyfriend who'd been secretly reading my personal emails. So I wasn't ready to open up to someone else again. Typical "let's just have fun" agreement where neither person wants to get hurt because let's face it - we just want all gain and no pain. We were young and dumb. But go figure I realized too late how I felt only when I'd successfully pushed him away. One night, I got hurt by a stranger and although he let me cry to him, he walked me out. The last time we saw each other was when he walked me to my morning class and said "take care" as the elevator doors closed between us. That's when my semester ended and I left Shanghai, unsure where to go next.

xo.z